The Day

March 10, 2011:

The day my parent's divorce was final.
The day everything I've ever known changed forever.
The day I wasn't sure who to trust anymore.
The day I became scared of the future.
The day I realized I need my siblings more than anything.
The day I promised myself to speak up no matter what.
The day I no longer look forward to the holidays.
The day I learned we all hurt each other.
The day I promised my future family will never happen to them.
The day that will forever have an impact.

Little Thoughts

Anger.
Hurt.
Resentment.
Sadness.
Numb.
Depression.
Upset.
Failure.
Broken.
Worry.
Fear.
Mistrust.
Destroyed.
Ugly.
Trapped.
Ruined.
Hope.
Relationships.
Foundations.
Stronger.
New Beginnings.
Faith.
Love.
Intention.
Prayer.
Learning.
Family.
Scars.
Future.
Change.
Little ones.
Healing.
Forgiveness.
Peace.


Reveal yourself to us, God....We need to see your face.


"He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds"
Psalm 147:3

I just didn't really think that this would be our last family christmas card

Lion Fight

" So...Chin up. Put your shoulders back. Walk proud. Strut a little. Don't lick your wounds...celebrate them. You're in a lion fight. Just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar."

Foundations

Parents are supposed to be your foundation. After all, that is what YOU alone were founded on. They brought you into this world. Kept you alive when you couldn't even hold your own head up. Sent you to school for the first time so you could learn all the basics. Put you in sports and extra curricular activities so you would make friends. Answered your questions about why the sky is blue, how babies are made, and what it means to do right and wrong. They watch you grow through those awkward, awkward years of puberty and trying to find your friends you can count on for the rest of your life. They stay up late and worry while you had the keys to the car for the first time and knew you had no idea how to be responsible even though you thought you couldn't deserve it more. They sat by proudly as you made your own decisions and decided to create a path for your future with college, relationships, and real adult jobs. They support your travels and all of the world you want to see. And they're always itching to just hear what you're up to next.

But then what do you do when that very foundation seems to crumble?
When you realize Mom and Dad have no idea what they're doing in this life anymore than you do?
How do you confront the issues that have been there you're whole life but you never noticed them because you were too busy aging?
And most of all.....where is it that we go from here?
Just...where is it?